Grace Upon Grace
John 1:16 says, "And of his fulness we have all received grace for grace."
Wednesday I experienced a rare occurrence. I found myself in a dark place. I woke up and my heart was heavy. I felt inadequate and unloved. Like nothing I do could ever be good enough. I cried a lot throughout the day. I begged God to take the weight from me. All day. I took a nap. I tried to pull myself out of the darkness. I tried to lay my burdens at the feet of Jesus. I dont know why this feeling came on me so suddenly and so strong, but I could not shake it.
I knew the joy would come in the morning. I believed it to my core, I just needed to make it through the day.
I required grace that day from those closest to me. My children offered me grace when they saw my struggle and took care of me. They took care of each other while I took a nap, they snuggled me, they cared for me. I talked to friends who offered me a distraction from my thoughts. My friends spoke life into me and reminded me who I am as a daughter of Jesus Christ. They reminded me of God's promises.
I believe lasting relationships require unconditional love, unconditional forgiveness, and unconditional grace.
Grace upon grace...
Grace happens when you are accepted as you are. When your flaws show, those offering grace don't even notice the flaws. No judgment, just love. It is a gift God offers us in abundance and I believe God calls us to offer that same grace to each other.
It's a rare feeling for me to feel like a failure. I don't allow myself to go there. This day could have destroyed my closest relationships. Those who love me most had every right to be frustrated with my bad attitude. Because I was offered grace instead, I was able to rest Wednesday night and wake up Thursday morning brand new, with the joy of the Lord in my heart. All my relationships were fully in tact, and some were made stronger by the experience. I praised God that morning!
I share this story not to gain your sympathy but as a reminder that we all need grace when the struggle comes. We are enduring a difficult time in our world, we all handle it differently. Some of us are ok being at home all the time, some of us are enjoying the break from running kids to this activity and that practice, some of us are having a hard time being away from those we love.
We are called to love, forgive and offer grace to everyone we encounter, right where they are at.