I don't know how many times I can write about forgiveness... I'm in constant need of it, and I continue to receive it daily.
This weekend I took my eyes off God, and like Peter, I fell into the stormy sea.
Satan took that moment in time where I was closed to the spirit, and got right to work. The evil one tried hard to do damage and I thought he'd won.
I went to bed with hurt and awful regret on my heart. So much so, that I tossed and turned all night, crying off and on, sick to my stomach for acting like an idiot to one of my closest friends, and I did the only thing I could think to do. I prayed without ceasing.
I prayed for a miracle. That I would be forgiven because of unconditional and constant love. I prayed for my heart and the heart of my friend. For understanding amidst the indifference. I prayed that our relationship would somehow be restored, even though I am undeserving of it.
The next day, God showed up. My friend treated me as though I hadn't made a huge mistake, like nothing had happened. I was met with forgiveness and love. I was so relieved, I started praising God and I swear I'll never stop. I am so grateful for this second chance. It came to me even though I don't deserve it.
This forgiveness reminded me of the forgiveness Jesus gives us. Freely given, as often as we need it, even though we are undeserving. Despite our biggest mistakes, Jesus offers us unfailing forgiveness. I am going to receive it. I am going to let it wash over me and never make a mistake like that again.
Through my dear friend, God taught me the value of forgiving others and the value of the forgiveness He gives me, and I am changed because of it.
How, or more importantly, who, are you called to forgive today?